one week

sometimes you just feel everything and nothing all at once. sometimes you find yourself smiling while missing something at the same time. at times you can absolutely love a person, while finding the need to hate them. life comes without guarantees.

Wasted

summerschool sucks sooo bad and it's at the worst school known to man (lake taylor) i could pretty much die in that school. you would think monday through thursday for three weeks doesn't sound bad but trust me it's horrible. i went in the bathroom today and i swear there was a ghost making noises while i was peeing which was one of the many bad decisions i've made today. the worst part is i'm missing strollers rehearsals until august. i'm never failing a class (that i have to take in summerschool) again. maannn

I'll make it while you're asleep

i'd build myself up & fly around in circles.
wait, then as my heart drops,
and my back begins to tingle
finally, could this be it?

enjoy!

kim von d: find me a cute boy
heaaather baby: yeah right next cute boy i find is mine.
kim von d: bullshit i am in need of some, more than you.
heaaather baby: true that.
heaaather baby: HAHAHAHA JK
kim von d: LMAO


so kim is officially a sex addict. today was fun but the beach gets boring after a while. sometimes i just wanna sleep there all day but i know eventually some random mexican guy is gonna come pick me up and put me in his car and rape me or something like that. and i'm officially black. (emotionally and physically) tomorrow we have a strollers concert then i don't know what i'm doing. its soso hahaha

fifth of july

look at the picture my brother took of a drunk man. and look his index finger looks wonderful there. hahahaha. this year was essentially better than last, despite the fact that i wanted to go out more. funny how as soon as i got home i fell dead on the couch. the smoke outside really aggravates me. everytime i smell it i think about my house burning down. so last night i had this really good dream. only the people in it were somewhat different. personality-wise. and i really wish they were like that in real life haha but i guess you can't have everything. i don't know if what i want will help me or hurt me but i know that i want it. of course i don't wanna write my whole dream on this thing, that would be embaressing hahhaha. sometimes i wish people could see what they are capable of, because it could help them for the better.

don't cry out, you're happier than you were before, at least

I think it's sad when little kids get older. They're not cute anymore and they learn how to get away with things and they're sneaky. It's depressing.

Sooo, today Sarah's going into heart surgery. Well she's actually probably in it right now, and all I can do is pray for her. It's weird when people that you actually know and are related to go through things like this, because when someone you don't really know does, naturally you don't really care. It makes me appreciate life more. I can't imagine losing anyone that's really that close to me.

Be kind, because everyone you come across is fighting a hard battle.

raise your glass high, a toast to wherever we go

i've been thinking, let's get out of this party
these kids never meant much to me.